Beforelight

Beforelight explores queer childhood as a site of rupture and queer coming-of-age as a process of both becoming and unbecoming. With wisdom and grace, the speaker in these poems confronts the impacts of fragmented relationships and trauma on his nascent identity, ultimately committing to the self's authenticity as the highest form of devotion. Lush, cinematic, and deeply psychological, these poems grapple with the fragility of our most formative connections—familial, communal, and ancestral—as the speaker searches for communion with himself and tries to discover how not to “make a life out of pain.”

Praise for Beforelight

“In Beforelight, Matthew Gellman’s astonishing and sensitive début collection, family narratives unfold with the clarity and mystery of a photo album. Illuminating the brutal silences and blanketing snows of the suburbs, Gellman’s poems make the world of memory startlingly intimate and alive.” —Richie Hofmann, author of A Hundred Lovers

“The poems in Matthew Gellman's Beforelight radiate with tenderness and desire, speaking evocatively from the starless heat of our mouths and from the glowing embers of queer quotidian life. His poetry illuminates the contours of filial, sibling, and sexual bonds revealing at the core of his work a finely wrought portrait of a boy with apertures / yielding more apertures flourishing red and agape.” —Deborah Paredez, author of Year of the Dog

“I am moved and startled by the intensity of Beforelight, which is bent on retrospection, and profound in its careful examination of the family and the ways we are both beholden to and estranged from them.  These poems also give voice to the necessity of declaring one’s individuality, and in doing so, they combine sophisticated, psychological insight with rich, original musicality.  This is a daring, memorable new voice in American poetry, and a spellbinding debut.” —Mark Wunderlich, author of God of Nothingness